unlimited life

Last night before the PC2 tomorrow. My second English test this year. Aaaaaaand I'm off. I do not know what to think, what to learn more. I have done what I could, I hope it is enough. Maybe not. 

Well it's not over, I know, and I should never give up but whatever I'm still not feeling confident with what I have learned. 
Randomly beginning a new topic, yeah that's my brain, no logical follow-ups, no connections, no cohesion, maybe that's why I fail at writing longer coherent texts.
Why do all kids have these easy lifes, like cartoons, movies. Where the whole family is happy no matter what you do or what you feel about anything in this beautiful world.
I kinda dislike the idea of making unrealistic perspectives in movies or comics, because you will never reach that deep feevered and highly wished imagination of a perfect world where everyone is happy at the end of the story.
I am not a romantic guy, but I love my girlfriend, I like romantic movies aswell, science fiction is not even that bad, but I am not the real fanatic of these genres.
I'm rumbling again, whatever. I know it's hard to read my posts when you probably can't follow my logic.

I am basically trying to get a grid in my head, something easy, something where I can put all my thoughts in an ordered poisition, so they are clear, easy to find and of course logical.
The feeling of being different in an unknown way spreads through my mind. I am somehow such a close-minded guy, you will never get to know the 'all-in', the whole cake, everything about me, just because I won't talk about it. Maybe this blog is helping me to get the freedom I need.

from downtown,

goodgamewellplayed